Another month

  Annyeonaseyo!

  February ends today and I feel like it flew by...

  From what I intended to do, I read two books and an half;      :p        I found another amazing band to listen; and then I failed completely on the other things...

  

  In March I want to read more and go out more, I need sunshine (like the flowers).

  This weekend I want to book my vacations and be outside.

  My head needs to sort out what it's important in my life now and dream.

  At least, in all this, I'm back to putting me first and I'm doing whatever I want without concerns about whether the others like it / understand it or not... it really doesn't matter. 

  In the end, I'm proud of myself because I'm taking things smoothly and that for someone like me is amazing.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

 

People and rest...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  It's not common but people can surprise us once in a while. We tend to label people by some of their actions and then when we have the opportunity of actually interact with them, sometimes they show another side of them (and that means good or bad, of course).

  I really need to rest. My body and my mind are so tired... that I think I'm on the verge of breaking down. The last six months have been hard and keeping everything inside is hurting me as hell. I need time to think...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Teams

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Football (also known as soccer) is an important sport where I live.

  When I was younger, I was addicted to it and knew all the teams and players, followed the games and was really affected by the results of my favourite team. Now, I don't really care about it, I still have my favourite team and I like when they win something but it's not really important if they don't.

  Now, I joke about football with the ones that suffer with it... is fun. Of course they joke back and I get really angry... (ahahahahahahahah, not really! But is fun to see the reactions ahahahahhahahah).

  I leave today with a song, "This is really goodbye" by M to M.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Secrets

  Annyeonaseyo!

  We can only have a secret if only we know it. 

  If we let just a person know it, it's not a secret anymore and even if we trust that person completely, our secret is gone... lost forever.

  I think that, as soon as we decide to share it with someone, we really wish other people to get to know it .



  Thank you Sundri for sharing this:

 

  I love it!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Music, once more

  Annyeonaseyo!

  So, everyone here knows that I love k-pop. They sound really good and they look awesome!!! ahahahahahah!

  Today I bring you something different, even if it's Korean and a boys band - CNBLUE, Code Name Burning. Lovely, Untouchable, Emotional. This indie band is amazing and the sound they produce is a perfect mix. They look good, but they sound, in voice and instruments, heavenly.

CNBLUE - Tattoo

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Picky?

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday I was talking with a girl friend and she said I'm too picky. Ahahahahhahahahah!

  Because I always ask for explanations or examples of things, she gave me a few. One of the examples was concerning boys, of course, it seems that singles are a problem that we should avoid. Ahahahahahahahahah!

  When she tells me to look to regular boys, she says that  I shake my head and that I only pick those that are smartly dressed and that own a well shaped body. Well, if I'm just looking I should go for the best ones, no?

  I really don't believe that we chose the people we care for for their looks... it's the way they make us feel and what's inside of their mind that get us close. :p

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Uncomfortable

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I have the feeling that I make people around me uncomfortable.

  Am I a difficult person?

  Am I scary?

  It's clear that there is people that tiptoe near me and that leaves me uncomfortable too.

  BUUUUUUUUU!!!!

  Ahahahahahahahh!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Songs

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I love music. I listen to a lot of different things and I feel connected with the lyrics or the beat but most of the time with both.

  I don't really think that we need to understand the language in which the song is sang but it's essential that if we would like to translate it, we could (which means that I don't appreciate roarings).

  And I feel sad when I avoid songs because of the things that it reminds me... it's stupid, I know...  

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I wish

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I wish I could have some drawers where I could store my my past (all the memories, all the feelings...) and those drawers couldn't be open unless I wished to and was mentally prepared for it.

  It would be nice, right?
  
  When I feel down for some reason I tend to listen to music that goes along with the way I'm feeling... Today was Linkin Park - "In the end", "Somewhere I Belong", "Leave out all the rest", "Breaking the habit", "Numb" and "Crawling".

  Although I don't like it... Happy Mardi Gras everyone!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Ahahahahhahah!

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Today was a good day!

  I went to take care of me and I went shopping. Because I was meeting someone really demanding, I went all dressed up and that made me laugh a little because people that see me everyday in work clothes didn't recognised me.

  I jumped into a friend too and now I may have company to go to Rome.

  Misconceptions are dangerous. We can think that we have an idea of how someone looks for their everyday clothes; we can think that we have an idea of how someone will react from all the previous actions; we can think... but people can surprise us (in a good or in a bad way...).

I'll leave today with an old song that someone revived today:

"Lover, why?" by Century

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Everyday

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Everyday should be an happy day. Well, at least, we should try to get the best of it.

  I need to change my way of doing (or not doing) things that make me happy because of laziness (I would say that's because I'm tired; I don't have time; I don't have money; or whatever but the truth is that we postpone things just because we don't want to bother ourselves).

  At this age I still need to grow up a lot... ahahahahahahahah!

  I've finished watching "Heartstrings" and I enjoy it. It shows that love is doing our best to help the other half of us to be the best and although the easy way is to put ourselves in the back... that won't work... both need to be walking in the same direction, shoulder to shoulder.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Should I?

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Although we may try to be low profile it seems to be funny to talk about others...

  Just endure it... in long terms it will make you stronger.

  There's an opportunity for me to develop on of my projects into a real thing. Should I do it?

  And can I do it?

  I must be confident about it before jumping in. In one hand I think I can do it and I should just grab this chance but on the other hand I lack confidence because all the mess in my life...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Being honest...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Lately, I've been full of myself (ahahahahahah). I had some fun but this is not me.

  It's time to go back and be quiet (not silent because I like to talk a lot).

  So, I'm back to meals with my music and writing; back to my daydreaming; back to finishing the tasks I start; back to my true self.

  I've said before that there's so much I want to accomplish and time is running...

  I need to stop fooling around (ahahahahahahahah).

"Do poepket ssumnida"

It seems...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  It seems that now, once in a while, I have days when I'm completely off...

  I could say that I was dealing with my own thoughts or that something happened to cause this but it's not true... I don't see any cause for this to happen. I just get absent-minded and even if I'm able to pay attention for a while, the truth is that I'm not really there, I'm daydreaming and such...

  It seems that my unconsciousness is trying to protect me from some unlucky days or trying to fix some unexpected events.

  Today is the birthday of my nephew... six years old!!! :) Amazing!

 

 And this is my 100th post on the blog!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

No news is good news

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday, I finished the drama I was watching: "Shining Inheritance" and once more I prefered the second lead male... they are always more fitting and always stay alone.

  Now it's time to watch "Heartstrings" with Jung Yong Hwa, the pretty boy from the C.N.Blue

  I also started reading a new book: Let's Take the Long Way Home by Gail Caldwell.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Happy V-Day, specially for the singles

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Happy V-Day, specially for the singles. 

  For the time being, it's good to be single, so smile and enjoy!

" Everybody's Wrong:" - Hinder

  I'm still sick and I'll rest all day.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

   

:( and :)

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Today my room is finally finished. I still need to move some books and other decoration items and my dad needs to help me hang my little witches and my boy fairy but that's all.

  I'm really happy with it and once more I saw that , although I like different things and strong/dark colours, my "know how" (ahahahahahahah) to "design" pretty spaces is still good.

  Oh gosh! I'm really humble!!! Ahahahahahahah!

  Anyway, I'm not feeling good today. I woke up with an headache, my throat hurts and I'm all blocked (?). I don't know if is a flu or allergies but this spoils my mood. I'll rest today and tomorrow I hope I feel good enough to go out.

  

  After all my complains about what's been bothering me lately, I hope my silly life goes smoothly. I need to play, to laugh and to go easy with myself.

  Finally, to you that knows me so well, I miss you so much! Sarang hae! 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

So.... it's seems that...

   ... all my venting worked.

  My day was calm although I was very tired from not sleeping enough.

  Thank you!!!

What should we expect?

  Annyeonaseyo!

  First of all, thank you both for the comments! :)

  What should we expect from people that don't really knows us?

  Some people can have good readings of our actions but does that mean that they know us or that we are close?

  And what about the ones that don't understand us in any way... should that bothers us?

  Then there's the ones that don't care at all.

  And finally, there's the worst of all, the ones that think they know all but in truth, don't have a clue about nothing.

  Hummmm... It's just that I'm  really a plain girl and all I see is people making movies about my life... Get one for yourselves and just let me be. ahahahahahahhahahah
  And all I want is to be quiet... So please, stop. Things are getting to a point where I just can't ignore them.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Gomen and why do people...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday I was scolded for posting a song to the only person that commented on the blog because I have, at least, three persons that follow me everyday and those didn't received anything. So, gomen nasai and thank you!!! I know who you are and I really enjoy the different points of view about what I talk.
  For you guys: 

2PM - "Thank you"

  Why people don't stop before letting others be embarassed? 

  I'm not a person that have lots of friends because that's something hard to get and to keep above all things. However, it seems that everyone thinks that because we exchange two or three sentences we are "pals"... It makes me uncomfortable to the bones.


Edit: And being single doesn't mean I'm available.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

When we know ouserlves...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Not always, but there's times when we know exactly what will happen if we know ourselves.

  If the case is serious, we will probably delay the result the most we can but nothing will change...

  Why can't I deal with my thoughts and my feelings as soon as they appear? 

  Things would be less painful.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Inspiration

   Annyeonaseyo!

  What? 

  Did you thought I would talk about something extraordinary? 

  Of course not... Inspiration is the inhalation of air into the lungs. Right?

  It's something that we really need to do or else we won't be here... And because it's so important I decided to talk about it in this blog.

  Ahahahahahahahahah!!!

  Where inspirations, this time stimulation of the mind or emotions, come from?

  For me, they come from what I see around, from something I read, from something I heard and that touches me in a very close way, whether because I agree/like or because I disagree/hate.

  There are people that are always inspirational by the way they lead their lives and this is amazing because it's a continuous act of sorting out all that it's important not only for themselves but to everyone that is around them and I really think they do it in a natural way... like a instinctive thing, a second skin... 
  But, why can't it come like this?

(taken from the web) 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

A gift and my lack of courage.

   Annyeonaseyo!

  The only person that commented my blog deserves a gift  :)  and because I'm always teasing her, this time I'll post a song that I hope she likes.

  Miss Pipoca, this is for you:

"It's not goodbye" by Laura Pausini

  

  If sometimes I think I'm strong enough to make it through all the mess that just keeps popping out in my life, it's so hard to be strong and face all the adversities when there's so much going on in my mind and in my heart. There's times when I lack the courage to get out. On those days it feels like I need to recharge my batteries to be able to handle the next days without breaking.

  Gambate, Brux!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Tattoo and readings, anything more?

  Annyeonaseyo!

  It's final... I'm doing a tattoo this year and I already found the theme and I asked a pro ( Thank you!!!  :)  ) to design it for me.

  This week I bought some books... eight, I think... one is almost finished - it's the latest book in Portuguese from the Dark Hunters series, Dark Side of the Moon by Sherrilyn Kenyon.

  Next one will be Nagasaki by Éric Faye.

  I went to oriental food shops that I really enjoy visit and bought some yummy things... I want to try making wontons. 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

My photo online?

  Annyeonaseyo!

  It's not the first time I try to explain why I don't appear in any photo on my facebook account, on my blog and on Gaia. 

  I just feel more privacy like this...

  In a world like the web, where anyone owns everything and everyone, this is my way to protect myself in the real world.

  But... Am I sure that I'm not on the web?

  I'm very sure that I am but it's really hard to associate something like this (I hope) if people close to me respect my wishes of not having photos online and at least don't identify me.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Humor and today I'm in good mood

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I've a twisted humour... I like being mischievous and I like to tease people. It's funny for me but I really don't like the other way around, ahahahahahahahah!

  Probably that's the reason why I'm in good mood today... because yesterday was a funny day even if I got something annoying by the end of the day.

I leave you today with my favourite boys in Super Junior - K.R.Y.S. - "What if..."

  So, annyonghi kaseyo, everyone!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Indecision...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Being an indecisive person myself, I sometimes find funny how many times a person can change her will but most of the times it's annoying that people don't really know what they want.

  I'm indecisive but it's hard for me to change an opinion... on the other hand, it's really easy for me to change the things I will do next, specially is the next thing to do on the list is something that I don't like (ahahahahahah).

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Weird is not the right word to describe me...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday I was told, by someone that knows me very well, that weird or strange are not the right words to describe me.

  I'm very sure that I'm not crazy or quirky.

  I went to look for a better word to describe me and I found one - I'm peculiar.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Gomen nasai

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Sorry if I sounded angry or bitter yesterday.

  We should live our lives caring for our well-being and the good of our family and friends. Others should do the same and respect our privacy and our choices.

  Bad mouthing, gossip and envy are annoying things that I really don't need in my life.

  So, in January I read:

• The Villa Girls, by Nicky Pellegrino
• The Best of Me, by Nicholas Sparks

  And I saw:

• Coffee Prince
• The Woman Who Still Wants to Marry

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Don't judge me.

  Annyeonaseyo!

  If I like this, if I do that, if I think this, if I want that... that only concerns me, right?

  In this world we're still owners of ourselves and if we aren't allowed to do much (without interfering with others), at least we can have our own tastes, our own thoughts and our own dreams.

  

  If I like to dress all in black, I will do it.

  If I want to listen to really noisy music, I will do it.

  If I wish to stay quiet at home, I will do it.

  

   And if you don't like it, if you don't agree with it... shut up and leave me alone.

  I'm weird and I like it... I don't need to be like all the others, I only need to enjoy living in my own skin.

"Do poepket ssumnida"