Thursday, 31 May 2012

My need

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I really need to be out and get some sun... and each day I do it I want more...

"Do poepket ssumnida" 



Wednesday, 30 May 2012

Right track?

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Well, all the stuff that has been bothering me for the last month are fixed (I truly hope so).

  Now, I need to take care of myself again and make all the things that I wish without major concerns.
  Life is short and I really want to live it peacefully and happilly.

Leona Lewis - "Happy"

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Tuesday, 29 May 2012

Sunny days

  Annyeonaseyo!

  The weather is so good here the last few days that it's really hard to get in the mood to go to work.
  I want to be outside and I want to be lazy...
  I'll take the chance to do it in the mornings, before work :)

  I think, yes... the me that is allergic to photos, I want to start making an album... making memories...
  I'm getting weirder by the day...

"Do poepket ssumnida" 


Bad start

  Annyeonaseyo!

  My day had a bad start today... there are things that people that "dump" all their paperwork on others, should avoid... like arguing first thing in the morning with the person they depend on... It broke my mood completely and I, someone that almost don't curse, was on fire...

  Fortunately, my day got better right after getting out from the house.

"Do poepket ssumnida" 


Sunday, 27 May 2012

Past

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Sometimes we go around closets or drawers or even computer files and find stuff from the past, things that have memories and that are somehow connected to places, people, feelings, thoughts, experiences...

  Yesterday was one of those days...
  I was messing with my mobile phone and played some songs that I didn't listen for some years...

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Saturday, 26 May 2012

Absence

  Annyeonaseyo!

  When I first started this blog I said that I would love the liberty of not coming here whenever I wanted... so, I'm doing that.

  I've been busy having fun and dealing with things from life (some boring things too).
  I'm OK and that's the important.


"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Pending things

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday, the 22nd, was a meaningful and hard day for me, but it was a day to take care of pending things and to go out and try not to think too much.
   It started as a promising day and became a stressful day soon after but it ended in a good way.
   I want to think that things went smoothly because of my strong will to make it a good day.

  I don't want to be unhappy or stressed and I'm trying to deal with life the best way I can without messing with my will.  


"Do poepket ssumnida" 



Monday, 21 May 2012

Bad temper

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I always had a bad temper. 
  I like things my way and sometimes (a lot, actually) it's my way or no way. So, when I interact with others on a regular basis, it's hard (or impossible) to keep it reasonable. I know that I'm wrong for acting this way but I can't do better, it's stronger than me... Even when my conscience "screams" not to do that, I'll do it anyway... but a little bit later than usual.
  I also change my humour really fast. It's easier to make me mad and it's a little harder to put a smile on my face. And if I'm mad, there is no use in talking to me because I won't listen (it's like I had turned out the sound). And that can also be dangerous because if I am in the mood to taunt, I'll do it because you have done something or because you haven't done anything...

(taken from the web)

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Saturday, 19 May 2012

You know...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  You know those times when you wish you have gathered all the courage to say all that's on your mind about something but you think about the consequences and all the other possibilities and give up?

  Or those times when you say something but as soon as the words come out you regret it?

  Yes, I know those times too....

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Friday, 18 May 2012

The book I'm reading

  Annyeonaseyo!

  The book I'm reading now talks about a strong bond between seven sisters and what they would do for each other.
  Family, for me that actually have one, is really important.
  I really don't know what would be of me if my family wasn't always there to back me up.
  Don't get me wrong, a family like mine is also trouble sometimes because they think that I should share everything with them but I prefer something like this than being alone.
  I love my family!!! And I'm lucky enough to know that I'm loved back!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Thursday, 17 May 2012

Yesterday

  Annyeonaseyo!

  The movie was great. They didn't disappointed me once again.
  Barnabas Collins is an amazing character and the story developement is really well done.

 Muse - "Feeling good"

  My life isn't perfect and I won't dream with that... reality is never perfect. BUT, I'm feeling good. I'm happy and calm.

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

Another day...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  It's too hot...

  I'm so well today and relaxed...
  I hope life is giving me a break now :-)

  Tomorrow I'll watch the "Dark Shadows" movie. Tim Burton, Johnny Depp and Helena Bonhan-Carter together again!!! I've been following them since "Edward Scissorhands". And only them would drag me to the cinema since I'm not a fan of it...

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Monday, 14 May 2012

Without stress

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Everything I post here are just things that I need to take out of my chest - it's like therapy...
  I'm not complaining, whining or something so you don't need to stress out with the things you read.

  When I say "I'm peculiar" it's the truth... I'm complicated and full of thoughts. I see the world in my own way and I care for too many things and too many people. And I feel too much (even for my own good).

  But relax, I'm OK.

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Sunday, 13 May 2012

True colours

 
 Phil Collins - "True colours"

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I'm a person that trusts others in a very clean and honest way... for me, people are good until they show me otherwise... but, once you show your "true colours" and you're not what I thought, you can forget me because I have good memory... 
  From that time forward, I'll listen and laugh or giggle or just pretend I didn't listen... 
  I'm not a child anymore; I've been hurt before and I like to use my brain... 

"Do poepket ssumnida" 



Saturday, 12 May 2012

Worries and annoyances

  Annyeonaseyo!

  When I have a perfect day, I always receive an unpleasant day after...
  One of my pregnants (there are two) is stressed out with the doctor and with the fact that she is stuck at home - this is my worry.
  I always give my best at work and if I don't do more is because I can't. And it's annoying that people say things without knowing what happened.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Friday, 11 May 2012

Beautiful day

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday was a beautiful day. It was sunny and not too hot and it was really good to be outside.
  I went near the coastline and I even put my feet in the sand and in the sea water.
  My head was light and it was a nice way to rest and stop thinking for a while.
  I ate great lunch somewhere near the place this picture was taken. 
 picture by Manuel Campos Vilhena (taken from his blog)


I got back to Lisbon and went to one of my favorite places to have tea.
And the day only finished after dinner and, once more, thank you! 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Wednesday, 9 May 2012

Feeling insecure?

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I'm always insecure about something... and when I feel more fragile, that pops out like popcorn in the pan.
  I need to know everything, to feel that I control things and I'm not really a fan of big surprises that can really change a life...
  And I feel too much... 
  What for so many others is normal, for me can be something very big and overwhelming...
  If it's something due too my big imagination? Probably... but I really can't suppress my fears when I start jumping to conclusions... What really bothers me is that I hurt others with all my suspicions and I get even more insecure...

  Have I ever said that I'm peculiar?

Babyface - "Sorry for the stupid things"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Plans

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Do you like to make plans?
  Plans for trips, for vacations, for your day off or simply plans for your next morning? 
  I do. And this last year I've been good on follow them but sometimes (and now I'm really committed to avoid these occasions) plans don't work.
  Main reasons for that? Family, weather and, the worst of all, laziness (and that's the one I'm trying really hard to destroy).
  I used to make excuses of all kinds just to stay at home but that was just me being dumb and lazy. 
  That's why I'm enjoying so much being outside a lot. That and I really love the company and the enthusiasm that we feel when we are outside.


              "Do poepket ssumnida"

Monday, 7 May 2012

Gosh

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I was saying that the weather was going to get better, right?  It's raining heavily...

  I want to try cooking vegetarian food for myself... but as a complement to meat or fish. 
  I like eating it when I eat out so I think I should give it a try...

  I can't give up on meat, fish or eggs - I like them too much but I can try eating better, right?

              "Do poepket ssumnida"

Weather and being out

   Annyeonaseyo!

  They say the weather is going to get better and I'll finally have some sun.

  I want to be outside as long as I can. I need it and I enjoy it.
  I like to read and listen to music while I'm sunbathing in the park and I'm really behind in my readings... (sadly, my day only have 24h).

                 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Sunday, 6 May 2012

So...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Yesterday's post got some funny reactions. People that know me very well said "Finally". Ahahahahahahah!!!

  Life is a pain sometimes but I'm OK. I'm happy because I have people around me that love me and because all my efforts to help and be there for the important ones in my life is going well. I'm not the person that says that I can't do it, because I'm tired or because it's hard, anymore. If it's important, I'll do it and that's it (and it doesn't really matter if it's important for myself or just for the ones I care, because now, for me, that is almost the same).

                                                                                             "Do poepket ssumnida"

Friday, 4 May 2012

When I say...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  When I say that I'm amazing, is because it's true, right?
  I know me better than everyone and I know almost all my flaws (even if I just don't admit them out loud). I also know my qualities and I know that, if I want to or people deserve it, I give all I've got and I'm just amazing.

  People can read this and think that I'm full of myself... but I'm just being honest.
  I don't really care if others, that don't have the privilege of knowing my true self, don't agree with it or believe it - all I know is that the ones that matter know that what I'm saying is true.

(taken from the web)

  I'm just like this beautiful scenery... not everyone can see my inner grace.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Sometimes

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Sometimes I think life likes to give us troubles. Maybe is to be sure that we have changed and that we know what we are doing. Maybe is just to shakes us.

  I'm better than before or, at least, I think I am. I do things, I try to show things and I'm learning to tell and share things.

  If I'm understood? I hope I am. I really wish that all my commitments are noticed and appreciated.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

Rain... and me

  Annyeonaseyo!

  It's been raining a lot... and my mood is set to a day like this.
  I'm worried with life (as usual, I know) and I really don't know how to explain my concerns about things. But it's funny to see (only to myself, of course) that things that used to make me get mad or run away are now making me be quiet and smile.

  Life is hard and people tend to make it harder by misunderstanding others and situations.
  I wish things can be cleared and I can move forward without any concerns.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Workers day and getting back to work

Annyeonaseyo!

  So, today is Workers Day. To the people that are at home enjoying it, have a nice day. To the people that HAVE to go to work in this day, be strong and have a nice day. To the people that could be at home in peace but are being a bothersome to the ones that HAVE to be working... I really hope your day sucks... 

  Today is the day that I get back to work. My vacations are officially over and I hope things continue to be quiet for me.

"Do poepket ssumnida"