2011

  This year is almost finished and I personally think that it was a bad year.

  I hope that I can let behind a lot of things that happened this year and that 2012 hold an evolution (or revolution) to my life.

  I wish a happy new year to everyone.

  Things will be hard, we know, but I hope to see smiles around me.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Older - George Michael

"Older" - George Michael

  I'm a big fan of George Michael, since Wham days.

  This is, for me at least, his best album - Older. Most of the songs in it are made to make us think and feel. I don't really know how to explain it but there are songs that touch us deeply, right? This album touches me deeply!

  I usually pick songs for their lyrics or the beat. But the ones that stay forever have a closer connection with my feelings.
  And this song, along with another one, have an extensive meaning to my heart that only I can comprehend.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

New commitments

  I need to think about new commitments for 2012.

  I decided to start a 365 days project - I'll pick a word (funny, weird, meaninful...) and post it here.

  I'm also giving myself  31 days to clean all my trace in the place that doesn't belong to me anymore. I really need to move on and right now that's the only thing that binds me to that part of my past.

  I'm aiming for the heal of my body and my soul - those are my big wishes for 2012. 

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

:) Christmas card

  Today I received a very special Christmas card.

  It's from my sister, the person closest to me. The one that knows me better than anyone and that shares lots of my life drama. We are apart now... she thinks she's a grown up and I still think she's a little girl (but we both know that we are both wrong...). But we keep in touch a little and still share our thoughts to one another.

  I miss her so much and worry so much because of her.

  I only want the best for her and sometimes I make her life hard because I only try to achieve more and more for her.

"For the most important girl in my life I only want the best. I love you!!!"

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Too late?

  Is there a time when something is too late?

  I'm not talking about time... in that case if it's too late, it's too late, there is no other choice. We can't move the clock back...

  But how about things that need to be fixed - like hurting someone or doing something the wrong way. There is no hope in fixing it because it's too late?

  I know that if we hurt someone, the harm is already done but it's too late to fix it?

  If we do something the wrong way, is it without fixing forever?

  Can't we just go back to the point where we can make things better?

  It's not that  we are amending everything back but it's a way to make it clear that we were wrong and that we are sorry, no?

  I regret many things in my life and now I think I should try to fix some... not for the sake of others (or for God to forgive me... ahahahahahahahah) but because I'm old enough to understand that sometimes I should be a better person than the one I try to be everyday.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

It's funny...

  It's funny how people think that they are the only ones that can talk, say nonsense, yell, throw a fist, blackmail others...

  If you ever respond to it, you're the devil.

  I try to mind my own business and that sometimes is hard because there are actions from others that affect my good will, my trust and my patience (and this last one is something that I don't own enough).

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Favourite Christmas song played by the amazing Il Divo

  OK, Christmas eve is tomorrow and for the first time I don't really know if I will find time to post something here. 

  "Silent night" is, probably, my favourite Christmas song and if it's performed by Il Divo is even better.

  I wish you all a good Christmas eve!!!  Merry Christmas!

"Do poepket ssumnida"