2011

  This year is almost finished and I personally think that it was a bad year.

  I hope that I can let behind a lot of things that happened this year and that 2012 hold an evolution (or revolution) to my life.

  I wish a happy new year to everyone.

  Things will be hard, we know, but I hope to see smiles around me.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Older - George Michael

"Older" - George Michael

  I'm a big fan of George Michael, since Wham days.

  This is, for me at least, his best album - Older. Most of the songs in it are made to make us think and feel. I don't really know how to explain it but there are songs that touch us deeply, right? This album touches me deeply!

  I usually pick songs for their lyrics or the beat. But the ones that stay forever have a closer connection with my feelings.
  And this song, along with another one, have an extensive meaning to my heart that only I can comprehend.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

New commitments

  I need to think about new commitments for 2012.

  I decided to start a 365 days project - I'll pick a word (funny, weird, meaninful...) and post it here.

  I'm also giving myself  31 days to clean all my trace in the place that doesn't belong to me anymore. I really need to move on and right now that's the only thing that binds me to that part of my past.

  I'm aiming for the heal of my body and my soul - those are my big wishes for 2012. 

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

:) Christmas card

  Today I received a very special Christmas card.

  It's from my sister, the person closest to me. The one that knows me better than anyone and that shares lots of my life drama. We are apart now... she thinks she's a grown up and I still think she's a little girl (but we both know that we are both wrong...). But we keep in touch a little and still share our thoughts to one another.

  I miss her so much and worry so much because of her.

  I only want the best for her and sometimes I make her life hard because I only try to achieve more and more for her.

"For the most important girl in my life I only want the best. I love you!!!"

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Too late?

  Is there a time when something is too late?

  I'm not talking about time... in that case if it's too late, it's too late, there is no other choice. We can't move the clock back...

  But how about things that need to be fixed - like hurting someone or doing something the wrong way. There is no hope in fixing it because it's too late?

  I know that if we hurt someone, the harm is already done but it's too late to fix it?

  If we do something the wrong way, is it without fixing forever?

  Can't we just go back to the point where we can make things better?

  It's not that  we are amending everything back but it's a way to make it clear that we were wrong and that we are sorry, no?

  I regret many things in my life and now I think I should try to fix some... not for the sake of others (or for God to forgive me... ahahahahahahahah) but because I'm old enough to understand that sometimes I should be a better person than the one I try to be everyday.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

It's funny...

  It's funny how people think that they are the only ones that can talk, say nonsense, yell, throw a fist, blackmail others...

  If you ever respond to it, you're the devil.

  I try to mind my own business and that sometimes is hard because there are actions from others that affect my good will, my trust and my patience (and this last one is something that I don't own enough).

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Favourite Christmas song played by the amazing Il Divo

  OK, Christmas eve is tomorrow and for the first time I don't really know if I will find time to post something here. 

  "Silent night" is, probably, my favourite Christmas song and if it's performed by Il Divo is even better.

  I wish you all a good Christmas eve!!!  Merry Christmas!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Muse

"Invincible" - Muse

  Wow, it took me more than a month to post Muse in my blog...

  I have a few bands that I follow closely, some from a long time and some just recently. 

  :) Matthew Bellamy is an amazing composer and the other members of the band are incredible smart to understand that he's great.

  They mix a lot of genres and Bellamy has an incredible voice that makes them really special.

"Butterflies and hurricanes" - Muse 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Avoiding...

  There are days in my life when I wish to avoid everything... I would love to become invisible.

  Avoid the things I hate, that are boring, that make a mess...

  Avoid stuff that appear on the wrong time...

  Avoid things that I like but that are not good for me...

  :)  So, please, Christmas is really near... Santa? Give something to fix this, please? 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

People should treat themselves first...

  In order to be happy and able to enjoy life and help others, people should treat themselves first, right?

  

  Once upon a time, a girl used to put herself first in every matter. She knew that, as long as she was fitting her own shoes, everything would happen as she expected or at least she would be held as the only one responsible for the results (she couldn't blame others). Somewhere along her life, that girl lost herself. She gave up on herself and put others in first place. Big mistake because only when we come first we are of any help for others.

  But, how can she go back?

(taken from the web)

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Books

  I already told that I'm a book eater, right?

  And I told you which is my favourite book, right?

  I have two samples of that book - Wuthering Heights, one private and one on my bookshelf.

  The books on my bookshelves have, maximum, some passages underlined.

  The private sample of this book, that I first read in 1997, I think... has notes, personal comments, quotations, drawings... I read it every year (this will be the first year I didn't since 1997). 

  It's curious... I care so much about my books and keep them in great shape but this one I as able to personalise it. It's mine in every chapter. How could I do this to my favourite book? Shouldn't it be the most precious?

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Done?

   My headboard is finally done!!!

  It looks really lame but I'll keep it because for now it's part of this project and although it's not perfect (it's too big and you can tell that it's not a professional work), it took a lot of work, time and money.

  The next days off, I really need to go shopping... I have no presents...

  Today, while talking about Christmas gifts and who to give them, I just told loudly that I don't really think that I want kids of my own... some years ago... more than ten, for sure, I used to wish three of them. Now, I don't  want any. I don't have the courage or the patience to raise one. Some people looked at me like I was saying something really dangerous... or out of my mind but I was just being honest.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I'm not a classical music fan

  I'm not a classical music fan but the last month I've been attracted to it a lot...

Bach's "Air on the G string"

  Beethoven's "Moonlight Sonata"

  These songs, both sound so sad, are beautiful.

  I wish to start a 365 days project for 2012. I have two ideas, for now - a photo per day or a quotation per day... I need to think of / look for some more examples to see what I want to do.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

If you...

  If you had to reveal your favourite colour, which it will be?

  - Mine is green (it used to be blue but people change).

  If you had to pick your favourite painting, which it will be?

  - Mine, although I have some that I really like, is Edward Munch's "Scream".

  If you had to decide what is your favourite book, which it will be?

  - Mine is Emily Brönte's "Wuthering Heights".

  If you had to select your favourite song, which it will be?

  - Mine? I can't chose one... Songs, for me, are connected with episodes of my life or with my feelings. So, Evanescence - "Hello"; Within Temptation - "Stand my ground"; The Cars - "Drive"; Europe - "Carrie"; Queen - "Love of my life"; Pink Floyd - "Wish you were here"; Irene Cara - "What a feeling"; The Heights - "How do you talk with an angel"; Prince - "Kiss"; Phil Collins - "In the air tonight"; Def Leppard - "Two steps behind"; Bad English - "When I see your smile"; B. Stevie - "Because I loved you"; Linkin Park - "In the end", "Numb", "My December", "Leave out all the rest"; Craig David - "Walking away"; lots from Muse; etc...

  And this one:

Samuel Barber's - "Adagio for strings"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Christmas

  A week from now it will be Christmas.

  I'm not excited at all...

  I usually make my Christmas tree... not this year. Mom did.

  I don't have any presents bought yet and, honestly, I'm not concerned with it.

  

  Does anyone do a New Year's intentions list?

  I do but I think next years list will be really small...

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

OK. Hair? Done!

  There's something that I'm addicted to do even if most of the times aren't useful at all - lists.

  I make lists for lots of things: shopping, what to do (not useful), travel items to put in my bag, projects that I would love to develop (not useful), things I wish to have (not useful), dreams I have (not useful)... oh... see? This is another list!!! Ahahahahahahahah!

  So, today I went to colour and cut my hair. The colour is less reddish than before and the cut is not in curl, it's my second option, after talking with the hairdresser but it's quite different and I'm happy with it!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Mythology

  I have a deep passion for mythology and I'm more comfortable with the Greek and roman ones but I also know something about the Norse and the Celtic mythologies.

  A myth is, I think, a form of explaining how the world is now and how humans can act in the most absurd situations. Greeks used myths to explain natural phenomena, cultural variations, traditional enmities and friendships

  If I had to pick just one myth that really moves me, that would be really hard but I would chose the Pandora's myth.

  She was the first woman created and she got gifts from all gods (never forget that she was made to punish mankind for Prometheus theft of fire), kept inside the "Pandora's box" with the advice of never open it. Out of curiosity, Pandora opened the "box" and the evils of mankind were released.Scared, she closed the "box" leaving only Hope inside.

  In every myth there's a truth beneath.

  Today, I leave you with two songs:

Sara Ramirez (Callie from Grey's Anatomy) singing Brandi Carlile's "The Story"

Xiah Sunju (DBSK) singing "You are so beautiful"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

 

Chocolate and other favorites

  I love sweets, specially dark choco.

  When I feel sad, when I'm happy, when I'm tired or really all the time... I love to taste it.

  From Portugal, I appreciate the "Cozido à portuguesa", "Bacalhau com natas", "Bacalhau à Gomes de Sá", "Francesinha", "Arroz de polvo" and some others... and of course, sweets like: "Pastéis de nata", "Babá", "Farturas", "Sericaia", "Farófias", "Tortas de Azeitão"...

  I enjoy trying different foods but I can't eat spicy ones...

  I love sushi, sashimi, maki and onigiri.

  I really enjoy eating pasta and Pekin duck.

  As I said so many times, I like tea a lot but I also like ice drinks, specially the coffee one.

  Someone is hungry?

"Do poepket ssumnida"

What do people need to be happy?

  I started my day helping a friend - that made me happy!

  At work, I was surprised to see two little kids being helpful to me - that made me happy!

  I think that being helpful to others and being nice (don't mistake me... if I don't like someone, I can't act...) is enough to make me smile. If people return the gesture it's even better.

 

  I feel happy when I listen to music, when I read, when I write (random stuff, of course), when I draw (very badly, I must admit), when I cook, when I drink tea with a friend, when I go spend some cash...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Xmas

  Every Christmas I enjoy going to an exposition/sales fair called Natalis.

  The picture above is one of my addictions, I have four things like this made by an amazing couple with stuff that we can find in the woods. They have amazing pieces and I love them all. Although the picture is not great (if I have the patience, I'll take another with my camera) on the left there's a girl and a owl, then two mushrooms and another owl.

  I also bought a little one, a boy with a hat, carrying something.

  Other things that I love in these kinds of events are the jewelry and I picked some earrings, a necklace and leather bracelets.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Bad start, good day!

  Ahahahahahahahahahah!!!

  My day didn't started as I wished - I said I would like to go and cut my hair, right? I want a change for a really different hairstyle... something like this but longer and reddish.

  (web taken)

  But instead of going to the hairdresser, I went shopping with my dad.

  Now, I can only go next week...

  I had a task that is due on Sunday, right? The headboard... that won't happen too... I didn't even started.

  But, I made things happen, OK?

  In the renovations work I already changed my bed. 

  I went out and had some fun.

  I'm tired and pleased with these days off.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I'm tired

  I'm so tired...

  Tired of my room project because there's no ending for it and because I should be able to let go all the stuff I bought when I was thinking about a couple life with our own space.

  Tired of my work because I feel like I'm a machine without motivation.

  Tired of pretending that my life is OK and that everything runs smoothly.

  Tired of my non-stopping mind that doesn't let go of things and don't allow me to rest.

  This time I need to appreciate my parents more than ever  :)

  Kamsaamnida ommoni, kamsaamnida oboji!!!

  I'm grateful for the caring people around me and for my stubbornness. 
  If I'll be a good girl tomorrow, I'll cut my hair and change it a little (but still keep it reddish) and then I'll go out in the afternoon.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

My room

  I'm thinking of showing a little bit of my room because I'm really happy with the renovations.

  Before, my room walls were cream/pinkish (not really my style because I don't like pink) and I had furniture in every material and colour.

  Now, although it's still full, because I have lots of stuff to store, I think it's a more mature and fitting room.

  I like decorations, plannings and I even imagine houses or floors... I once had my dream house planned and designed... I don't know where that is now... but I still have a book of drawings where I put my pieces - clothes, houses, items... 

   "Do poepket ssumnida"

Kokeshi dolls

  "Kokeshi dolls have been a Japanese cultural institution for over two centuries. Giving and receiving Kokeshi dolls dates back to the Edo period (1603-1867) in Japan. Kokeshi dolls were handcrafted by woodwork artisans of the time known as Kijiya, (which means woodworker in Japanese) to be given away as tokens of love and friendship. Kokeshi dolls were given as gifts to newborn children as a lucky charm to bestow good wishes for a healthy child.
It is this philosophy of bestowing luck and good fortune upon friends and family that is behind the creation of the Kimmidoll® brand. Kimmidolls are contemporary collectible dolls combining a fusion of traditional and modern creative sensibility."

  I love kimmidolls and I own a few but I miss a lot!!!

My name is Yuko. "Affectionate"
My spirit is loving and warm.
By living the love you feel, you share my spirit. Show your affection in the warmth of your embrace and in the sincerity of your words, and you will know the true joy of loving.

'

   "Do poepket ssumnida"

 

Superheroes

  When I grow up I would love to have some superheroes powers.

  I would like to:

• learn to harness chi (train in martial arts gain superhuman capabilities that provides extraordinary strength, speed, durability and reflexes), like Iron Fist ;  
• have telekinesis (ability to manipulate and control objects with the mind), like Jean Grey;  
• have accelerated healing (ability to heal rapidly from any injury), like Wolverine;
• own superhuman senses (ability to see, smell, taste, feel and/or hear more than a normal human), like Beast;
• possess innate capability (ability to naturally have skills and/or knowledge typically earned through learning), like Sylar;
• have omni-linguism (ability to understand any form of language, a natural polyglot), like Cypher;
• know teleportation (ability to move from one place to another without occupying the space in between), like Nightcrawler.

  Ahahahahahah! 

  Well, I must say that my favourite superhero is James Howlett, commonly known as Logan or Wolverine. "He is a mutant, possessing animal-keen senses, enhanced physical capabilities, three retracting bone claws on each hand and a healing factor that allows him to recover from virtually any wound, disease or toxin at an accelerated rate. The healing factor also slows down his aging process, enabling him to live beyond a normal human lifespan. His powerful healing factor enabled the super soldier program Weapon Xmetal to bond the near-indestructible alloy adamantium to his skeleton and claws without killing him."

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Why?

  Why do I talk with  myself?

  Why do I talk to the machines, to my teddy bear, to the people that do stupid stuff in my favourites TV series?

  I know that I'm not the only one to do it but why do I do it?

  Am I expecting to solve something that way? Or am I mentally disturbed?

  Ahahahahahahahah! I know that I'm not normal and I don't want to be but I'm not crazy, for sure.

  I read somewhere that: "I talk to myself if I want to have a conversation with someone intelligent. Otherwise I just talk to the people around me." Hummmm, I really like this idea!

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Please, don't worry about me!

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I was randomly surfing the net and found this:

"Circumstances or people can...

take away your material possessions,

they can take away your money,

they can take away your health.

But no one can ever take away your precious memories.

So don't forget to make memories.

Every day! Every moment!"

  Don't know who said it but it's beautiful!!! Kamsaamnida!!!

  I feel that people close to me are afraid that I'm depressed. 

2PM - Without you

 This post is my answer for all the worry! Chesongamnida!!!

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Explanation

Lizz Wright - Trouble

  New voice for my heart content!!!

  So, I did what I proposed to do. I went out, I wandered around, I did some shopping and I found the fabrics.

  Next task - due Sunday 11th - make the headboard. And I'm adding something else - going out on one of my days off.

  Now, I'll explain a bit about this project... I decided to change my room completely - from my old room I only kept my books, my decorations items and some clothes. All the other stuff - furniture, floor, curtains - it's all new. And I may say that the new look really suits me. Right now, the things that are still missing are the new bed, the curtains, the headboard, a ceiling lamp and a little table.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

:) Hummmm

  Hummmmmm is my favourite expression. :) It says a lot without saying a thing.

  

  I've been really tired but today I feel that I have some peace of mind. Considering the things I posted about yesterday, I came to realise that I don't have any goals because I'm a lazy person that prefers being comfortable than work out to be better...

  I should be ashamed, right? 

  What about I start developing some kind of project every week or twice a month? Simple stuff, like cut my hair, go somewhere, organise myself in different aspects... 

   Let's start this week - I need to buy some fabric to do a headboard and some more fabric to make three curtains. It's a really simple task... I only need to go out and search for it but it's been something that I have been postponing for more than a month... I must find four or  five kinds of fabric with green colour.

  I'll post the results of this task until Sunday.

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Goal...

  People are moved by goals, right?

  I can't think of a single goal for me right now... I'm just moving with the flow.

  I'm tired and I really don't want to be worried. 

  I'm old enough to know that I need and deserve more from this life than what I got but I need to sort my feelings and manage to find a new direction in life that fits me.

  :)  I must say that I'm really proud about the way I'm handling this blog... I never would guessed that I could post like this and be so open about me. I'm really weird...

  Friday I'll have the day off and I'm planning on being out part of my day even if it rains. I'm not social but I like being outside! :) 

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Weird...

  I consider myself a weird person and I think all people that know me think the same.

  It's not a bad thing, it's just that I gather a lot of different looks and tastes and they are not regular where I live.

  I'm not the girly type and I'm not concerned about my look or outfits - It's comfortable? So, that's all I need. But people find that strange...and once in a while they try to convince me that I should try to dress up more... what they don't understand is that I can do that but I just don't see the point of doing it.

  I like eastern / Asia a lot and that's also unusual.

  What can I say? I'm weird but I enjoy it. :)

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Tattoos

  I would love to do one or two but...

  I don't want a name, a tribal or a regular one that we see everywhere.

  I can't even pick a theme, so I think about it a lot but I'm always undecided.

 

( web taken )

  I like this one. It's simple, clean and pretty.

 

 "Do poepket ssumnida"

Dreams

  I don't usually dream or at least I don't recall it.

  Sometimes I hear people talking about the dreams they had last night and I look at their happy or worried expressions and I wonder if dreaming is so important.

  Instead, I daydream a lot. I have lots of stories in my mind and different lives. I think that it's a way of escaping from my real life or to handle it perfectly (ahahahahahahah!)

  

  Two days ago, I left here a question: "What do you think would worry you the most: how to function with this new life or how to cover your own private existence?"

  For me, the last is the most accurate trouble...  I can´t even imagine what would happen if someone ever knew about all the silly stuff that crosses my mind.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

"A woman is..."

  I am, since two months ago, a big fan of Korean dramas.

  It's strange since I'm someone that doesn't watch TV and have no patience to observe silly acts done over and over. But I truly enjoy watching these dramas.

  My favourite so far has been Boys over flowers, a drama centred on the life of Jan Di, an average girl from a poor family that owns a dry cleaning store and that, after saving a boy from jumping off the roof of Shinhwa High School, is admitted into the school on a swimming scholarship. 

  There she meets the four richest and most spoiled boys around, known as the F4. She tries to avoid confrontation with the F4 at all cost because she knows what happens to those that stand against them, like what happened to the boy she saved.

  However, because of the only girl in Shinhwa High School that talks to her, Oh Min Ji, Jan Di is forced to declare war on the leader of the F4, Goo Joon Pyo. The F4 combines four messed up guys with lots of worries but that are really true friends - Goo Joon Pyo, the guy that doesn't admit any mistakes; Yoon Ji Hoo, the musician (my favourite);  So Yi Jung, the pottery guy and Song Woo Bin, the gangster.

  Now, I'm watching Secret Garden and Yoon Seul, one of the female main characters, said something that I really want to keep:

  "A woman is... no matter how common she is, she can be a queen; no matter how noble she is, she can be a maid; depending on how she is treated by the man who she loves."

"Do poepket ssumnida"

What if...

  What if, by some magic spell, one day you woke up exchanged with other person?

  We all have dreams, secrets, wishes and fears that we don't share with anyone. And we are made up considering all our previous experiences - what we do, what we like, how we live, who exists in our life, what we hate...

  But one day, we woke up in another body, with a completely different way of life and with experiences apart from ours.

  What do you think would worry you the most: how to function with this new life or how to cover your own private existence?

"Do poepket ssumnida"

What should I do? (Eoddeokajyo?)

  My life is already a mess and now I find out that the job I have is hurting me in a way that can be really dangerous.

  I always believed in karma - you know, what goes around, comes around - and even if I'm hot-headed I think I'm a good person (in general, at least). So, in my previous life I probably blew up a country or framed lots of people and now I'm paying for it...

 

  Ssshesssss, here I am whining again... 

  Changing the subject - what should be the priorities in someone's life? 

  What should we aim for?

  How can we find what really matters? And is it the same for everyone?

  :) I'll leave you today with 

"Eoddeokajyo - What should I do?", by Jang Geun Seok / A.N.Jell - "You're beautiful OST"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Girls always fall for the bad guy?

  "A week has passed and Lilly's place almost feels like a home. She managed to get the sofa delivered before the weekend and now only little details and personal touches are missing. She still needs to find a place to put her favourite decorations items - a replica of the statue of Nike and a fairy made with organic materials. And she needs curtains and the perfect pendant lamp for the living room. 

  She's seated on the long-chair, admiring all the hard work she has done. She must feel proud because the outcome is great.

  Tomorrow is Saturday and she decided to go out for a walk, a little of fresh air and to observe the neighbourhood. She didn't saw a single person all week, except the bakery girl. She's also a little sad because her neighbour just vanished. She left him the guide for shopping in the mailbox but he didn't said thanks, he didn't even left her a note about it."

  Hummm today's topic - Is it true that girls always fall for the bad guy?

  It seems to exist a contradiction with other of those ideas about relationships - All the good guys are taken.
  Which one is true?

  Or bad guys turn into good guys when they fall in for true love and just marry?

  

  In my opinion, if a guy really loves his girl, he will always be good to her no matter what. That means commitment.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

It's raining again...

  Rain... 

  Lily was sitting by the window, like she always does in raining days. She loves to watch the rain falling down and listening to the sound of it. It makes all her troubles disappear for a while.

  Sipping her tea, while looking out was preventing her from crying. Last week was something surreal for her... it was the end of a life chapter and she is now completely lost.

  She just finished moving to this one bedroom apartment and now she has to start over. 

  She turns her head slowly. The whole place needs to be painted and cleaned. But it's her space and it means a new beginning.

  Even without noticing, she smiled. There's some new opportunities coming from this. 


  :) Sometimes we look to someone that passes by and, for no reason, we wonder about his life. It's weird! It makes me wonder about what other think about me when that happens... it's troublesome for someone like me. I worry to much... :)

"Do poepket ssumnida" 

Mikan and Natsume - manga :)

  I enjoy reading manga. :) It's something I do everyday, even if it's just a little.

  But because manga is not available in my country, I read it on line and sometimes I have to wait a lot for a new chapter. :) So, I want to thank all those people that do the free translations and that allow me to have so much fun reading it. Thank you fan subs!!!!

  Usually I pick drama stories... I get attracted to them and after that I fall in love with the stories, the characters...

  The image above, the only image I kept from all the manga I read so far, is from "Gakuen Alice", a Japanese manga by Higuchi Tachibana. It's Mikan and Natsume.

  "Mikan Sakura is an orphan who lives in the countryside of Japan. When her best friend, Hotaru, transfers away to a prestigious school in Tokyo, Mikan follows her. The school is actually an elite academy for the gifted people with “alices”. When Mikan arrives to the gates of the school, she encounters a teacher and gets enrolled due to a series of events. She is told that she has a unique, rare “alice”. There, she immediately meets Natsume. They get along like fire and water, yet they are undeniably attracted to one another. She also gets the chance to meet other people; like Natsume’s caring best friend Ruka, or Iinchou, the class rep. Despite her initial view of the so-called greatness of the school, she slowly finds out that beneath the grand facade of the academy, there is a never-ending stream of lies and buried secrets."    

in mangafox.com

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