And when...

Annyeonaseyo!

  And when everything seems to go smoothly, I start to think...

  I need to plan my life. I can't just go with the flow and expect everything works well.

•   I need to put myself first (that is my main goal);
•   I want to be happy with life every single day:
•   I wish to travel, so I need to save money.

  There's lots of things in this kind of list... and I need to be careful not to lose my direction. 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

End of vacations and thoughts

   Annyeonaseyo!

  So tomorrow is my last day of vacation... ohhhhhhhhh!!!

  Now, I can dream with September....

  Sometimes I'm afraid of being happy because I think that someone can envy my happiness and it will vanish... 

"The best revenge is happiness, because nothing drives people more crazy then seeing someone actually living a good life." - author unknown

  But I'm happy and, honestly, I think I deserve it. And because my way of facing life and all the things that are around me is different, I know that this is real as long as I want it to be.

"Happiness is a way station between too little and too much." Channing Pollock, Mr. Moneypenny

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Raining days can also be good days...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  I'm happy today!!!

Colbie Cailat - "Stay with me"

  I worry to much about a lot of things. And there are days when I think to much about what if and what could happen...

  My mind is always full of thoughts that sometimes I can't handle...

  But today I'm good, at peace. 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I'm still the same...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Today I got time for myself and I tried to put things in perspective. Conclusion: I'm still the same.

  When I think I moved forward (and don't get me wrong, I did in so many ways), I see that I'm still holding back my breath and keeping things to myself because I'm scared of what may come.

  I think I'm making the same mistakes or heading that way...

  Where's my strenght now?

  I always knew that I need to do the right questions and I need to get the answers but can I do them? Because I feel like I'm the only one that doesn't know what is happening...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I'm back...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  (Don't really know what happened but the post I made yesterday is gone... )

  I'm back from Rome. I had an amazing time and I really enjoyed my trip.

  Being alone made me really proud of being able to deal with everything by myself but there were times when being alone was boring.

  I loved Rome. It's a really rich city and all the story of it is so close to me that being there made all the difference. I was lucky to be there in the weekend they celebrate the anniversary of the foundation of Rome, so I had the chance of seeing the parade they do to celebrate it.

I promised photos, right?

 Piazza di Spagna

 Fontana di Trevi

 Coliseum and Constantin's Arch

 Fori Imperiali

  

Piazza di S. Marco 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Ready? Go....

   Annyeonaseyo!

  So, I'll leave to Rome tomorrow. My bag is ready and I really need to sleep.

  Today was a crazy day and I hope things go smoothly now and forward.

  I'll post again when I get back... a week from now, ok?

  You guys behave while I'm away!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Shopping day

   Annyeonaseyo!

  I'll leave soon to go shopping!!!

  I need some clothes and because I'm very picky we'll see how it goes.

  The day is cold and the sky is full of clouds... I really wanted sun...

  I only have today and tomorrow before leaving to Rome and I really want to go but... I'm nervous.

  I need to pack and plan but my days are too short or I'm being very lazy... 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Fears

   Annyeonaseyo!

  I'm a very complicated person with lots of thoughts and that brings me doubts about me, what can I do, what should I do, where I may go...

  I'm trying to surpass my fears and accept myself in order to be completely happy.

  And I'm being very cautious about it because I need to be sure (as much as I can) that this is the best for me right now.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Rain

   Annyeonaseyo!

  My vacations start tomorrow and it's raining...

  I want sun!!!

  Today I got the courage to put some photos of myself online... 

  To be honest, I hate photos and I think there's just a few where I'm OK... but I know that cameras don't make miracles  ahahahhahahahah!!!

  I think I need to accept myself and stop being afraid of something that could happen remotely with a photo of mine, right? 

  If I think my favourite quotation is " If you don't like it, put it aside", I need to be true to myself and stop worrying with what others may think of my looks, right?

"Do poepket ssumnida"

:-(

   Annyeonaseyo!

  It's raining in Rome!!! I want some sun and I deserve it!!!

  Today is my last of work before my vacations!!!!

  My body really needs to rest and heal. I was already better and now all the pain got back.

  I am anxious and nervous to see how this vacations will pass. Too many things have happened since I decided to travel...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

There are times...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  ... when you feel you are the most loved person in the world. :-)

  My neck is hurt again but I'll be fine soon and I'll be able to enjoy my vacations and have a good time, right?

  I'm happy because others around me are happy or is the other way around? O.o

  Be careful today if you're superstitious because today is Friday, the 13th, again.

  To you Miss, you, the one that don't leaves a comment but sends messages - thank you for the support. :-) 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

I need to...

   Annyeonaseyo!

  I need to:

• be more honest with myself and accept that there are things that I just need to let go and see what happens;
• be grateful for what I have and let others know that I am happy with it;
• show others that they complete my life and that without them I wouldn't be me.

  So, thank you for loving me, for supporting me and for having the patience to deal with me even when I'm not reasonable at all.

Bon Jovi - "Thank you for loving me"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Silly things

   Annyeonaseyo!

  You know when you pay attention to silly things and get happy with it?

  Silly things or little details can make your day: a little note, a special message, breakfast, a nice gesture, even just a smile.

  Sometimes we forget to do those things or forget to feel it but that is just sad.

  With so little we can make others happy - it doesn't cost a thing and it can make miracles.

(taken from the web)

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Worries

   Annyeonaseyo!

  I'm a person that thinks too much, worries to much and I can't even avoid it...

  I've said so many times that I'm afraid of being hurt but there's a lot more to it... And all those worries hold me back. I wish to be loved as a whole (messy and complicated mind + strange way of seeing life + unusual tastes + really regular body (far from perfect) and everything else that comes along). 

  Sometimes I have the feeling that there's only one or two of those things that look appealing... and that pushes me far, far away...

Edit:
  I think my experiences have been too troublesome for me to deal with and I'm just scared...
  Someone read this and said -  "Sometimes you just need to trust..."
  I want to do that but can I do it?
  Can I say to my mind - "Please, stop for a bit and just feel?"

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Sintra

   Annyeonaseyo!

  Once more I had a beautiful day off!!!

  I went to Sintra, Quinta da Regaleira to be more precise.

  The day was a little sunny and there wasn't any wind. 

  It was my first time there and I loved it.

 ( visit-sintra.blogspost.com )

  I need to congratulate the parents of a baby girl - Congrats IS and AO!!!

  And congrats RC for the new life you have ahead!!! 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Naked

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Have you ever felt "naked" while you're talking about your deepest thoughts or secrets?

  Everyone has their own secrets, the ones that we feel ashamed of and hide.

  I hate exposure... of any kind so this is really hard for me. 

  But I'm OK now and I hope I cleared some possible misunderstandings. 

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Easter and being alone.

  Annyeonaseyo!

  And Easter is here...

  I'm not a religious person but my family gathers and celebrates Easter.

  From Easter I love the all the choco and covered almonds :p

  Because all the family gathers somewhere, I'll be by myself for three days...

  I like to be alone in the house. It's quiet, I can listen to my music, I don't have schedules for anything and I can be in my pajamas all day... (well, not quite because I'll go to work....)

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!

(taken from the web)

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Happy birthday to me!!!

  Annyeonaseyo!

  So, today it's my birthday!!!

  I had an amazing beginning of my birthday. Lots of people made me feel special and that was awesome!!! Well, I felt like a princess! Thank you!

  I also got some fantastic presents.  :) Thank you!!!

  And, once more, I felt pampered and I'm so happy about it!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Fun and confusion

  Annyeonaseyo!

  I received a birthday message today that made me laugh. First, because my birthday is only tomorrow and second because the person that sent it was really trying hard not to forget it. 

  I didn't slept too well last night. My mood is good and I'm happy but I guess my heart is not satisfied with the way my mind is acting... Why? Because I'm afraid of being hurt...

  I hope my vacations in Rome, away from what I'm used to, will help me define which path I want to take...

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Two days without posting...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Gomen nasai!!!

  I haven't been busy... just lazy...

  My mood is so good that on monday I didn't move a finger... I stayed in bed until the afternoon and read a book... it was amazing.

  Today (or yesterday, because it's midnight already) I was busy in the morning and after that I stayed out all day. Unfortunatly I didn't caught some sun because it was a cloudy day but I had fun, I felt special (as usual) and I went to a very cozy place in the beginning of the night.

"Do poepket ssumnida"

Easter...

  Annyeonaseyo!

  Because of work, Easter isn't the same for some years now... I work, so I miss all the family gatherings. Sometimes that's a good thing. My family works like a cocoon where everything is everyone business (good and bad). But sometimes I feel left outside...

  

  And... do you guys remember a post some days ago where all I did was vent?

  My sister is pregnant :-) 

  Girl, you're a sea of worries for me and my white hair is all your fault!!! :-P

  But I'll always be by your side, you know that, right? Congratulations and I love you!!!

"Do poepket ssumnida"